01/07/08

So fast half a year is gone, is July now.

Good news to my loyal readers, I am updating my blog very often. Almost a post everyday. You can start treating my blog as newspaper.

Bad news for me, the reason why I had been blogging daily cause I am alone, sad and here is the only place where I can voice out all my feelings and thoughts.


You know how I felt an hour before at the basketball court.

A guy whom played basketball with me few days ago saw me. He came forward and ask if he could join me. Followed by a question that stunned me.
He asked:"Why every time I saw you, you are playing alone, dun you have any friends?"

I was totally speechless, and lied saying all my friends are still studying.

Beside not getting use to the "real world" which I am trying hard to strive in. I just found out that I dun have any close friends or reliable pals to trust, share problems and joys and hang out with.

Friends... does them really exist? Or is it just a myth.

That was the bottom part of today which I thought I would enjoy myself in. But sadly it disappoint me. Today I could not focus and concentrate whole-heartedly in my game. I could not score a basket, I could not dribble well. I am just shoot air balls and running around collecting the missed basket.

The early part of today was also so grey to me.

I was early as I warned myself not to be late anymore, but in the end I came late again cause I follow Kar Wah waiting for his friend.

PLW was ok. Shawn and Warren method of studying quite work. Read through and understand the topic what the teacher had just said.

Well, I was alone once again behind blk 34. quite a windy and quiet place to study. I read through PLW and BTC, and took a nap. hahaha

BTC, unforgettable. I got asked out by Ms Chui. She try to talk to me and understand what is the problem. well, I would not write our conversation was.
But I just wanna said, I AM EXTREMELY PISSED OFF WITH WHOEVER WENT AND COMPLAIN TO MS CHUI ABOUT ME. IF YOU GOT ANY PROBLEM COME TO ME DIRECTLY, DUN NEED TO TURN SUCH A BIG ROUND TO ME. I still dunno who was that person who went to her, but then dun let me find out.

That spoiled my whole day, resulting me losing my focus.

When a problem arises and the people surrounding could sense and feel it. It means that there is a problem. Why keep running away from the problem and pretend nothing had happened instead of trying to find solution and the root of the problem.