moody days

Nowadays feeling very moody, no mood to do anything. Thanks to my Dad and sis.

It all happened on Sunday. As I always said, I hate Sunday. That why I usual sleep most of my time during Sundays. Why do I do so? Cause Sunday is the day my Dad remain at home no working. and I dun like it.

Sometimes the fault of the problems does not start from you yet you are the ones getting scolded for nothing or maybe just being the elder sibling in the house. Ya I bet a lot of people have about the same problem with me, eldest in the family is like hell lots of responsibility, not only to care about yourself and for all your 'younger' siblings.

Guess what happened to me. I was busy choosing my future aka poly courses in the room. And my sis there outside with my dad watching TV. She start acting cute and sha jiao like a little girl to my dad hinting him to ask him to buy foods cause she was hungry. THAT WAS FUCKING DISGUSTING IF YOU WILL THERE, I dun mind seeing cute girls doing but execuse me, now who the hell is doing that, my ugly 'little' sister. She thinks she is cute, I tell her please wake up princess.

I just finish my choice and was kinda of happy then my dad came me scolding me and order me off my computer and my game. He ask me go buy foods for my sister. I just kept quiet and walk out of the house.

When I came back I gotten 1 hour of straight non-stop scoldings. As usual, I tell myself this kinda of things I just had to keep quiet pretend I am deaf and let him scold whatever he wants.

What make me pissed off is he said I never take care of my sister well since her leg was broken. And I never did a good job as a brother keep going out to have fun leaving me 'pity little sister' alone at home.

I kept quiet then, but I am going to write out what I wanna said then.

She broke her leg that is her problem, 15 yrears old still cannot walk properly, go back to crawling instead ba, it is much safer.
I never take care of her? who was the guy doing all the house works since she broke her leg, who go out and buy foods and who the hell called back home straight after my zakum session asking if she is alright. WHO?
Please next time break 1 leg so troublesome, either you dun break at all or break your neck, and dun bother me.
I as a elder brother also need my our freedom and space, I cannot 24/7 with her, who the hell she think she is.
Dun aspect a brother taking care of his sister till her death right, she got her life and I got mine.
YOU are the dad, man of the house yet you cannot take care of her yet giving me the task to do so, you aint great dad either.
Execuse of you are working , work important or family? I also working right. Plus if you does take care of us well, do I need to go out and work so early? We are poor but so? NO wonder Singapore kids has no childhood.

Damm angry and moody. All my friends can sense it. Haiz...

Finding my lost mood back~~~ CNY and bday coming, cannot make such things spoilt me.~~~

I know is kinda wrong to complain behind their back, but then what can I do?? Tell them straight in the face STFU? They need to be respected as well. But again where do I get my respect?